We found out yesterday that tomorrow (Friday) will be our last day in the creche. We expected (and so did the creche teachers) that we would be there through the end of next week. We also have been told that we may not be able to continue our work in the township next year. This is all pretty unexpected, and heartbreaking. I thought I had another week with my kids, but now have to say my final goodbyes tomorrow. I am already mourning my loss, but I of course knew that I couldn't keep them forever. They go on a holiday break for the month of December. I was expecting to begin work in a new creche come January, but it looks like we may be needed in the babies' home and that the work in the township will be very limited, if at all existent. I love the children who live on the property in the babies' home, and look forward to forming relationships with them. I am just not ready to leave the township. I really believe that the work we have been doing in the creches is effective. I have learned so much and was very much looking forward to the next challenge; implementing a routine into a new creche on my own. I feel very invested in the project and had seen my part as just beginning. To be pulled out of it is heartwrenching and every part inside of me is fighting it. Please send me good thoughts over the next few days. I am struggling.
Disengaging emotionally from the kids is extremely hard. I sat today and watched them practice their Christmas drama, which is a nativity scene acted out in Zulu. My eyes got wet watching them. Mfundo (pictured above) noticed me and my teary eyes from across the room and watched me with concern in his eyes (a four year old boy worried about me!). Sihle noticed too, and the next thing I knew I had two little boys sitting quietly on either side of me. What beautiful, perceptive and loving children. They are truly my friends. It amazes me.
Anyway, I just wanted to write quickly to ask for thoughts and prayers. And please think of and pray for the kids in my creche too-- they are each truly incredible and deserving of all the good things life has to offer.
Disengaging emotionally from the kids is extremely hard. I sat today and watched them practice their Christmas drama, which is a nativity scene acted out in Zulu. My eyes got wet watching them. Mfundo (pictured above) noticed me and my teary eyes from across the room and watched me with concern in his eyes (a four year old boy worried about me!). Sihle noticed too, and the next thing I knew I had two little boys sitting quietly on either side of me. What beautiful, perceptive and loving children. They are truly my friends. It amazes me.
Anyway, I just wanted to write quickly to ask for thoughts and prayers. And please think of and pray for the kids in my creche too-- they are each truly incredible and deserving of all the good things life has to offer.
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